“Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many of you were influential, not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption”.
1st Corinthians 1:26-30 (NIV)
The Holy Spirit brought this verse to my remembrance when I was battling what I would call the “Spirit of Arrival”. I used to pride myself in my relationship with God and how far I have grown with Him that I thought I could do no wrong. Well, the Spirit of Arrival is when you get complacent or lazy in your relationship with Jesus because of how much “work” you think you’ve put in and then you start to feel like you deserve a pat on the back. You could even be talking about Jesus a lot but not to Him enough because you feel you’ve spent enough time to rest. The bible encourages us to be alert and of sober mind because the enemy prowls around (so excuse me, where are you resting to?).
Being complacent with God will have you feeling you can do everything by yourself and start relying on your own strength. What happens is your posture becomes lanky because you started to lean on your own understanding instead of Christ who is the solid rock where we should stand. In actualizing my self-acclaimed reward; I started to prove to myself how strong I was in my faith by myself. I was trying to do Gods work without God and what happened was a whole mess. In a bid to prove how much I had grown to people, I ended up painting the wrong picture and even looking worse because God had to humble my behind. The Holy Spirit alerted me that trying to show the proof of Gods work in my life wasn’t the problem, the posture of my heart was.
The reason behind proving myself wasn’t for God to get all the glory, but for me to feel like I had achieved something. We never stop growing in Christ. We always have to go deeper. There is so much more about the depth of His love that a lifetime would never be enough to fully grasp it. The Holy Spirit tugged on my heart that my level of humility needed to be worked on. He made me remember who and where I was when I first felt the true presence of God. Some of us felt God in the loneliest and depressing place. We found Him in our pool of tears and at the verge of finally losing it. Some of us have even found Him in nature; the beauty of the world and in the peace with which He revealed Himself to us. The posture of your heart when you first yearned for Him should never die.
Always bring to remembrance all He has done for you and all He is yet to do whether you have seen it or not. Gratitude is matter of the heart not in the things we’ve seen. It’s easy to be thankful when we see the fruits but what about when we don’t? Some of us felt like we didn’t matter; like we would never amount to anything. Our pasts were hung around our necks and we were bound by the chains of guilt. And so we meet God in the humblest way possible and He meets us at the point of our needs. He nurtures, guides and loves us back into being whole but now we want to be comfortable and forget who He is.
Remembering who you were when He first called you isn’t to guilt trip you; but to allow you reflect on where you’re coming from and be expectant of where you’re headed. It strengthens your faith in Him. It gives Him room to operate in your life because God cannot operate under the atmosphere of fear and doubt. He did not create us in that Spirit so how can He dwell there? It is important everyday to check the posture of your heart. Why are you doing the things you do? What is your motive behind your worship? How are the fruits of the Spirit manifesting in you? As I meditate on these questions, they help me stay centered and grounded in God’s word and allows me remember who I am in Him. Checking the posture of your heart is guarding it from the negativity of the world because everything that you know and everything that you are, flows from it.